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This is one of those subjects that tend to baffle me.  I will try my best to express what I mean to say with words.

Definition of time: Time is a component quantity of various measurements used to sequence events, to compare the duration of events or the intervals between them, and to quantify rates of change of quantities in material reality or in the conscious experience.

We do need time in this experience on this planet.  This is true.  But what about time in relation to spirituality- manifesting, and in relation to past lives, and creating our own reality.

ooops there we go off the deep end into the sea of what? quantum physics?

Through my own experience talking with beings and spirits (family members my own and others) there is no time on the other side.

There is only now.  Eckhart Tolle says this is true.  That we must live in the now.  That when we do this, and accomplish this endeavor we become in touch with the divine.  Why would that be? Maybe it would be because we are not reaching, worrying or wishing for the future, and worrying, and guilting ourselves for the past.

We know about self-development and traditional “mind science and “law of attraction” philosophies and practices.  These only represent a small piece of a much bigger puzzle.

This idea that creation occurs over a timeline.  This may be a thought as to why lay people’s failure when trying to prove “you create your own reality”.

Now remember that solid matter, time and space are illusions of perception.

When we do any metaphysical practice, we are really creating shifts in our consciousness, in the inner world. Not in the outer.  We are really changing what we perceive.  So, called true meta-physicists focus on their inner worlds only, the world out there is only a reflection of states of consciousness.

Brain science knows that our perceptions are put together in different parts of the brain, the product of electro-magnetic waves reaching our perception senses and being interpreted as a solid reality.  How they are interpreted needs to be mentioned here also.  They can be influenced deeply by our past experiences in life.

Consciousness-created reality is true, how are we creating the reality we currently live in, and that includes what we do like and what we don’t?

There is this new concept that may shock you or spin you off into the deep, and could be looked at that free-will would go bye bye.

We may not be creating anything, but just witnessing events and conditions that have always existed, since the beginning of yes -this Universe.

Does that mean it takes away our free will and we are left with a predestined or pre-created reality without much choice?

What if the this already created universe contained each possibility and probability imaginable. There then could be free-will to choose from an infinite number of choices.

So here is the clincher:  It may be that each and every experience that happens to you in the present moment is just a reminder of which past and which future you’re focusing on. Past and futures that contain of infinite variations to choose from.

Where the past, future and the eternal now merge together.  Probabilities and possibilities together.

What if they all exist together, simultaneously at different frequency ranges and or dimensions.  Maybe you can remember a past as it is unfolding in a different frequency.

Now here it gets confusing

If you can visualize a specific future, you do it because it may be an even happening at a certain frequency somewhere in time and space and this future is communicating it existence to you, as a possibility in your life.

If you can remember a different past, you may be accessing a past that that you haven’t actualized at the now moment, but which is as valid as the past you think was real.

Deep breath…hahahhhaha

The now or the present moment could be simply a range of perceptual frequencies you experience out of infinite possibilities.  Like turning the channel on the t.v. to a new set of possibilities.

We are always at the point of the eternal now, choosing consciously or not, which parallel past or parallel future we want to tune into.

Interesting isn’t it, this is just a different way of looking at what we have been taught.

Just something to ponder about time.

With love Renee

When I was a little girl there were many moments that I can remember. We lived in Fremont, Ca – it was country then, and even though the house we were in was a new house, it had all sorts of mysterious things going on.

At night the doors would open and close, the faucets would go on and off, and you could hear people walking upstairs… Then there was me..

At the time I am a little girl about 4 or 5 and I just wanted to “go home” badly. My mom would find me crying in my room, and ask what was the matter. I would cry “I want to go home,” She would hold me and caress me, trying to comfort me, but to no avail. Finally started saying to me “You are here now, and this is your home.”   Well I finally did get over the wanting to go home, somewhat, but all through my life I have felt this way, like I was just visiting, not feeling really content or at home.

As I got a little older.(.my poor mom,) I said I wanted to be a nun, and my mom said “What? A nun… why?” I said “because that’s what I am.”  My family was not religious, we never went to church, or even talked about stuff like that. Never a word about God, or anything like that.  I just knew I wanted to be a nun, to serve, and my mom asked “to serve who? you’re just a little girl.” “To serve God,” I replied.  She just stood there staring at me…then yelled “Arnold, that’s my father…there is something wrong with Renee…she wants to be a nun…lol oh dear…. that is so funny.” I truly did, I used to see myself in a habit, walking with children, singing to them. Often I would see this as a little girl, and it was such a happy Time-I just knew that it was what I was going to do because I thought ‘well, it just made sense to me at that age.

The reason why that particular past life was so strong I think was that one of my most favorite lifetimes:  a nun, with the black and white habit, from what I can tell the church looks Spanish, could even be Mexico, all wood, and beautiful, with stained glass, wood floors. The scent was just gorgeous, and all the beautiful children like an orphanage, we had so much fun together. I loved being a nun, and serving in this way the source of all that is.  I also remember I was older when I died, and in a wooden coffin, and the children were peering in at me as I lay there.  I was watching them from above, some of them on their tippy toes looking in.  I wanted to marry Jesus, I actually think I was married to Jesus, how could a child even know about marriage.  But I did

But only to god.  Particularly Jesus.

In regards to all the activity in the house, the land was Indian land at one time, and of course there were spirits there. I use to go into the orchard, and run and play with them, the orchard to me was a magical place where I could run away from the violence at home that was impossible to handle as a small girl.

My father was abusive, and my mother was passive. They married when my mom was just 17. I cannot say that what was happening at home did not serve me in some way by teaching me great lessons of forgiveness and inner strength.  I know this now but as a little girl it was tough, and I was confused.  I often thought I didn’t belong here, and it seemed as I grew that only became more clear, as the abuse within the family was recognized.

So here I was, a little girl running around the house, and I happened to meet this man that was dressed funny, and had big eyes who would play with me at night. He would open the doors in the house, flush the toilet, slam the doors, make faces at my dad that I knew my dad could not see.  Sometimes he got me into trouble, telling me to say something bad that would make my dad spank me.  To me this man was more like a kid than a man, and as I grew, I learned more about him.

As I grew older everything would look different, at night when children should be  asleep the show would start: airplanes flying through the room, ribbons of color, and faces, some beautiful, some scary, I would cover my head to try and make it stop and when I did the monkeys would start to jump on my bed, the two monkeys who were chimps, one boy and one girl and both feisty and playful.  Many a time my dad would come into my room because I was playing with the monkeys and making too much noise. At first they scared me and I would scream “the monkeys, the monkeys won’t let me go to sleep!”  Then I got used to them, and still to this day they are here.

At the same time there were elephants, and a lion, and strange people too!!  The stars would come out in my room at night, and I would lay quiet, watching things move around my room.  Shortly after I started to feel pressure on my body, like someone was putting a board on my body and pressing down, causing me to be immobile. I would scream, and mom would come in to calm me down by rubbing my back. The pressure would stop then, but yet it would happen again and again.  I realized that was in fact spirits and energy which was coming to me more and more.

They would call my name, and I would see relatives that I did not know including Uncle Otto, and his brother, (one of my mother’s uncles,) They would appear suddenly and just kind of looked at me.  I would tell my mother their names and she would say “oh, that’s your great uncle…he is just saying hi.”   I saw people with long robes, and men in turbans, and hear words spoken, names and numbers, too. Still to this day, a lot has slowed down but a lot has not.  As you may know.

with love Renee

This day I bring to you the vision of Melchizedek.  The light was so bright, this caught my attention.  My heart started to race, and my breathing slowed.  As the vision was stronger and stronger.  The light changed in the room and I clearly saw a man with layers of colors with a giant light above his head.  There were also layers of circles that encompassed his body, circles that filtered out and out.   Trying not to react, and just to be, as I watched.  The main color was white light, and then a pink.  He smiled at me, stood off to the side, and with his arm invited me to walk, as he moved the light never left him.  It was part of him and this light was alive.  I did hear whispers, and some singing.  We entered a dark place, and as I moved through without fear, I was there.  No longer secured to the bed, no longer being held by the earth.

As of late I have been studying the Emerald Tablets, and in the emerald tablets a name was mention Melchizedek.  According to Thoth from the the emerald tablets, Melchizedek is two entities.   One that embodies the soul aspect, one the universal aspect beyond the energy of what we know, beyond our understanding. Who was ensouled illuminated  entity.  Then Thoth claims to be Melchizedek in one of his incarnations.

Apparently Lord Melchizedek came from Orion and through the portal of Venus to Ancient Lemuria.  He brought with him the Archangel Crystal which is the “Philosophers stone” or also called the “Emerald Tablets”.

Interesting ?  Yes it is.

At this point, you can see the connection, and why I would have a encounter with Melchizedek.  You can also make the connection to calling to Thoth, by his sacred named three times (thrice) as given in the book.  No the name is not Melchizedek.  You will have to study the tablets to get  the point of your own growth.

Earlier I was asking to see Thoth, and well, he showed himself.  As his incarnation Melchizedek.  As his arm was out beckoning me to follow, we entered as I said a dark place that turned into a cave.  As he walked his light so brilliant showed the way.  He showed a cave, and in the cave was a chair of stone.  I could see the detail, and I fixated on the chair, at that moment a person/human came and sat in the chair.

He became illuminated  as much as I could tell, he lit up.  He had visions, and he began to use the light.  Melchizedek looked at me, and smiled.

As some of you might remember I had the vision of the gold tablets within the cave.  But, they were protected by a male lion, that roared as I got close.  When Melchizedek looked and smiled he then showed me a lion, and the lion, morphed into a kitten.  He then held his arm out again to sit in the seat.  I could see the dirt beneath my bare feet and I felt it, I could feel the coolness within the cave.  I did not sit in the seat,

I was staring at everything.  Mesmerized by the whole encounter.  Then it was all gone.  Poof in an instant.

Being left with my heart and thoughts, and some work to do.  Back in my bed, in my room, in my house, solid again.

Now it is time for study.  To research. To meditate to connect.  The realization that I received exactly, what I asked for is to enough to bring me

to my knees in gratitude and  love.  This is also a call to work.  All done in love, through the love, comes the wisdom and then the power.

Not the kind of power to manipulate, the power of love.

see you soon

with love Renee

The pineal gland.  What a little gland it is.  What a funny little gland, with all this extreme power that it has.  The pineal gland is located here.

Located deep in the center of the brain, the pineal gland was once known as the “third eye.” The pineal gland produces melatonin, which helps maintain circadian rhythm and regulate reproductive hormones.

The pineal gland, has been considered the most powerful and the highest source of ethereal energy available.  The pineal gland has a spiritual role, that has transcended pretty much the facts of the hormonal role.  I feel this also is important, because we are hormones.

This tiny little gland can and does initiate psychic powers, clairvoyance and seeing colors of the aura.  But there is a catch

The pituitary gland work and vibrate together.  Speaking for myself I have always worked with both the pituitary and the pineal gland.

I do feel or it’s my opinion that you can wake both those babies up, with meditation, and spiritual work.  I also feel that they wake up naturally.

Also called the “the mind’s eye” or “the spiritual eye”

Through the awakening of the pineal gland we awake to consciousness.  We are seeing right now a mass awakening

History of the pineal gland is literally throughout time.  Many cultures talk, and teach the awakening of the little gland.

Often shown as a pine cone in literature, and in religious books, eastern.  Around the world, and throughout the ages we see many other pine cone references and symbology.

The pineal gland has been represented in ancient Sumerian, Egyptian, and Babylonian artifacts and paintings.

The wise ones always knew.  Even Cleopatra knew that the pineal gland was important.  There is a legend that she placed a magnet on her third eye, to stimulate the pituitary to restore her youthful beauty.  She didn’t know that she was stimulating also the pineal gland.

The pineal gland is the true master gland.  As noted, it is situated between the two eyes.  It is the organ of clairvoyance, and the eye of Ra in Egyptian traditions.

In a study the pineal gland was found to react to light, and somehow could sense changes outside the body.  At this point you must make mention that the pineal does regulate melatonin, also works with serotonin.  The interesting part also is that in our body we naturally produce melatonin, as we age it is produced less, as it starts to get dark melatonin is really starting to kick in and we get sleepy but as we sleep through the night about 3:00 am or so it stops producing.  This in fact is the reason a lot of people wake up around 3:00 am.  Your melatonin is slowing down and you are starting to wake up.

This is natural as a process.  As we age this is really influenced by the less produced.

The pineal gland was found to have rods and cones just like an eye does.  AMAZING? Yes, it is.

The secret doctrine, spiritual and psychic involution coincides with physical evolution.  What madam Blavatsky was saying is we follow the spiritual growth with our physical bodies, in evolution of the race on the planet.

Buddha and Jesus all made statements about the third eye.

Jesus said “if thy eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light”

Buddha and the Buddha nature, we have see it through a different eye, through a different perspective.

My own experience:

As everyone knows about me I have vivid visions while awake.  I use the language of light, with the purple clouds.  They are at times a deep purple or light purple.  I also have a terrible time falling asleep at times.  I sometimes take melatonin to sleep.  When I do I can bet every single time, I have an explosion of purple clouds, and energy.  The visions are so fast and strong.  Why this sudden surge of purple energy, it has to with the pineal gland.  In essence it is my own experiment! When I take the melatonin within minutes the purple starts and it is super charged, it does after a while slow down enough for me to sleep.  There is a big reaction to the pineal and seeing.

Did you know the pineal gland generates its own magnetic field?  The pineal contains magnetite.  This magnetite reacts with the earth’s magnetic field.

The pineal gland also is sensitive to fluoride, and can actually slow down and fog the poor little gland.

You can detox and you should read about and look that up if you’re interested.

The pineal gland is our personal portal.  There are micro crystals in the pineal gland. Calcite, is there with a liquid light like substance.  This is kind of like a crystal radio, and we can connect with all parts of ourselves in different dimensions.

This of course is connected to the mind and the thoughts that we have, the mighty pineal wants to connect to the higher but you must watch your thoughts, not brief thoughts but obsessive thoughts.  You can go either way with your own portal known as the pineal gland.

with love Renee